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| 05.27.04 (8:05 pm) [edit] |
The House of Shock site is back up!!! YAY!!!!
The House of Shock is a haunted house I work at. (the best damn one you'll ever go to btw) It's like a huge part of my life so visit the site people!!! lol Theres a link for it in my links so click it!!! I cant wait until we open up again. I miss scaring the literal piss outta people. :twisted:
Well I think I'm gonna be off to bed now.
later,
Corey
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| I want to make her troubles disappear but theres nothing I can do |
| 05.24.04 (10:47 pm) [edit] |
Why do beautiful people have to suffer? Why is it that someone so wonderful as Ash just cant be happy. Shes going through a hard time right now. But I know how she feels. Ash...you're not alone baby. You never have to suffer without someone being there to catch you when you fall. I'm always here. i wasnt home when all that bullshit happend to her and she couldnt call me. I hate that. I feel like I wasnt there for her when she needed me. I feel like I failed her. I love her so much. I dont want here to go through this. I want so much better for my baby. I just wish I could go get her and take her away from everything. I wish I could take all her pain away but I cant. Shes too young to move away. So what can I do? How can I make her feel better. I'll do anything it takes. Theres no limit to the things I would do for this girl.
Ash no matter what happens we'll be together. just like we said sitting on that swing in my back yard looking at the stars together. I'll always be by your side. I'll be here when you smile and even when you frown. Through thick and thin I'll always be around cuz you're my princess and I love you. No matter what I've gone through I've still had you to be thankful for. Now it's time I return the favour.
I hope I get to talk to her tomorrow cuz I just want to hear her voice. I have to know that shes okay. She'll definitely be in my prayers tonight.
I love you bay. "just keep swimming" and try to maintain a positive attitude about things k? *kisses and hugs*
Love,
Corey
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| the weekend |
| 05.23.04 (10:49 pm) [edit] |
This weekend was pretty cool. I have nothing to complain about.
Friday...I went out with some friends and hung out and shit like that.
Saturday..I saw Ashley...^_^ YAY!!!! that was really great. Everything was so cool and perfect. We hung out at my house for a while and that part was especially great :wink: The "stuff" we do was cool that day..hehehe. Then we hung out with my friends Jake and Samantha. We went to a pretty good steak resteraunt. Then we went to the arcade we hang out at and played a few games. Then Jake dropped Ash and i at my house and we chilled there. That part was cool too. I loved it when Ash said she wanted to look at the night sky together. I loved sitting in my back yard on the wooden swing we have and we just cuddled up there and talked about some really sweet things. I love you Ashley. I love you so so much.
Sunday...Today is Sunday and it was cool.I hung out with my friends again and we played games and ate food all night lol. Thats pretty much all that my day consisted of today.
I guess I'm outty.
Later peoples,
Corey :D
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| I almost forgot...... |
| 05.16.04 (11:26 pm) [edit] |
Today is my 7 month anniversary because it's 1:14 in the morning......YAY!!!!! God I love this girl. I cant stop talking about her. Seven months and I cant stop talking about her...this is great. Is there a possible term for something stronger than love? The only word I can think of is "dream" but this is real. Trust me I know I've pinched myself many times to find out...lol I feel closer to her every time I talk to her. Whats so great about us is we can always communicate and we never fight. This relationship is perfect. We seriously have the perfect relationship. I dont know how or why...we just do. But I'm sure as hell not complaining.
Thanx for being my Supergirl Ash. Out of all the other guys you know or you're going to meet in the futre I was the lucky one to get to call you my girlfriend. That means so much to me.
Well i'm gonna be off....for real this time. You Just Watch!!!! lol
~Corey
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| the sunshine after the rain |
| 05.16.04 (11:03 pm) [edit] |
Everythings A OK now...thank God!! I talked to Ashley when she got home at like 4:00 all the way until she had to get off the phone to go to bed for school tomorrow at 9:30 at night and it was awesome. We talked about some cool stuff too hehehe. Were so naughty but I like it :wink:
Anyways were gonna try to get together this weekend. I cant wait. It's gonna be awesome. Well I'm anticipating it'll be because of the "stuff" we talked about. Were gonna have fun. So as far as Ash and me go it's smooth sailing from here on out.
My family now theres another story. Were still fighting alot but I've been trying to avoid them so that we wont fight. I still wanna push my mom down a flight of stairs :lol: but I cant cuz Ash dosent want me to. Gotta respect my Ashley bay's wishes. Really shes all i got to be happy for in my droopy little life. I'm glad to have her. If it werent for her theres no telling where I would be or how miserable I would be right now. Thanx sweetheart :D I love you more than you know.
So yeah I'm in a really good mood now so I'm gonna go to bed and have sweet dreams about you know who now. *muah* I love you Ash!!!!
night mofos,
Corey
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| a more positive update |
| 05.15.04 (10:38 pm) [edit] |
I just wanna say sorry to all my readers for the depressing,"cry me a river" posts as of late. I deleted my last post because I just cant look at it. It hurt too much to read that and know it came from me. Ash saw it and she was shocked. Hell I wouldve been too. I'm sorry my baby. i didnt wanna think that way. I didnt wanna be upset. I fought it so much but in the end it came out. She felt bad from the start about changing our plans but I just had to push it. I'm an idiot. Sorry...I mean it wasnt cool. I hope everything'll be ok with us from now on.
On the plus side we agreed that our plans wont be cancelled again unless something comes up and we talk about it first. We made plans for next Saturday to get together. Something even cooler....she asked me to go to Six Flags with her and her friend Amber. (the friend who shes with this weekend) I told her I couldnt go unless its in the morning. Ambers b/f has a game of some sort to go to so I couldnt go with them. Anyways I told Ash to go ahead and go with them. (of course I still wanted to see her) but I didnt even need to say it. She said she was gonna be with me when I can see her in the morning. Although we had that one problem shes still the bestest.
Another thing I failed to mention is that when she agreed to go to her friends house she thought our plans together were cancelled because I got kicked outta my house. So she didnt do it intentionally. So I forgive her. It didnt take much though. I forgave her the second she said "I'm sorry" How could I stay mad at her? Shes so gosh darn cute :D We still have lots of lost time to make up for when she was grounded. Yup Yup!! Everythings gonna be okie dokie from now on.....I hope.
Well I'm off to bed now. Ashley I love you so much baby. No matter what happens.
~Corey
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| To anyone who may care but I doubt anyone does. |
| 05.14.04 (4:00 pm) [edit] |
Fuck it all. I'm about as low as i'm ever gonna be. I just wanna end it all right here right now but there are those people that I would hurt. I guess I have them to consider. But what else is there to do? How do I get through how I feel? I seriously wanna die. Right now my heart is broken in a hundred pieces and theres noone around to help me pick up the fragments left on the ground. I feel so alone. Ash is leaving for the weekend. I was supposed to see her tomorrow but she made other plans. Honestly it does make me a bit mad. I wouldnt be if it werent for all this bullshit but I need her so much. i really do. I know she dosent mean to abandon me but I really really need her.
So here I am alone,cold,and crying. I never cry. This is all too much. I hate my life. I'm just gonna go be alone now. Fuck it all. I thought everything would be ok but it's not and it's not gonna be for a long time. If anyone should need me I'll be the guy sleeping in the streets.
bye,
The loser
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| why am I still here? |
| 05.13.04 (10:56 pm) [edit] |
I feel as if I'm stuck. I cant fucking escape this prison. I hate this. I hate my life. I hate it all....with the exception of a few other people in my corner.
Today I got in the middle of my mom and dads fights to try and help things but as ususal I got to fight with them too. My mom called my dad which shes not supposed to do so my dad told me to tell her not to call. I told her and she bitched at me about telling her what to do. I got into it round one with her and we yelled alot. To top it off I'm on the phone with Ashley who really dosent need to hear all that coming from us. I told Ashley to hold on and i went in the hall and we yelled some more. My Grandpa came in and started bitching at me and that started a whole thing between him and me. It's much worse than it sounds because I'm not talking about the worst of it. Anyways my dad called me and told me to calm down. I told him "fuck you" and I hung up on him. I'm tired of being the middle man in their fights. It's their falt it all happens anyway so I'm done with that. I'm not passing msgs anymore.
I was supposed to be leaving for a while but I have to stay in this hellhole for atleast another night. I may leave tomorrow. I just cant live with these people anymore. It's driving me fucking mental. So I may be gone later on tomorrow night.
Ash I'm sorry baby. I didnt mean to go crazy with you on the phone. I love you and you're the reason I'm still gonna tolerate this. Please dont feel bad like you said in your blog. You've got nothing to feel bad for. Who cares if I'm a homeless bum. Atleast I'm a homeless bum with a great girlfriend :D I love you. I'll figure things out soon enough. Just remember that I'll always love you and were never gonna fight like that k?
Well I'm out
~Corey
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| my Saturday |
| 05.08.04 (11:43 pm) [edit] |
I saw Ashley today and that went awesome. It's been so long since I last saw her. Having her with me today was just the best thing ever. I missed her so freaking much.
We just hung out and watched a movie and just did "stuff" that noone wants to know about lol.
Ash I love you so much. You're the best thing to ever happen to me. I was seriously thinking about something while she was here. (a good thing btw) I got alot to think about right now. I have so much running through my head and it's all about Ash. Everythings about Ash. My whole life is Ash. I've never really wanted to commit myself like this before but I really love her and I wanna be with her forever.
Well like I said I got alot running through my head. Especially that "thing" I've been thinking about and NO I'm not gonna pop the question.......yet :wink: But I will someday. Anyways I gotta go so uhh laters!!
~Corey
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| boogangraggan! |
| 05.07.04 (4:41 pm) [edit] |
Im a sexy man whore bitch! You know you want this! But you cant handle it! Chuch niggaz!
lol that first paragraph was my friend Gabe but I decided to keep it because its funny. But uhh he gets no chicks whatsoever so dont listen to him :lol:
Gabe quit faking the moves fruit cake :roll:
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| Thank God it's Friday!!! |
| 05.07.04 (2:17 pm) [edit] |
I'm so glad this long week is over and the weekend is upon us lol. I may get to see my Ashley bay tomorrow! :D Me so happy!! I love you babydoll!! This time I told my dad to have her back at 9:00 so we'll get there on time :lol:
Well my day today went great. I'm in such a good mood. Nothings gone wrong all day. *knocks on wood*
I think thats all I got to say today. I love you Ash!!! I already said that but I dont care because I do love her so *raspberry* lol I'm so happy I might see her. I cant wait to give her a big hug and lots of kisses!!!
Well adious mofos,
Corey :D
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| slow ass week |
| 05.05.04 (2:00 pm) [edit] |
This week is going by too slow. I hate it!!!! I wanna see my girlfriend damnit!! I hope I talk to her today too cuz well I miss her. I feel as if somethings wrong. I just worry alot. I'll probably feel better when I hear from her. Well I guess thats all I got to write about for now. If I suddenly grow another arm I'll write about it lol.
lata,
Corey
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| blah!!! |
| 05.04.04 (11:04 pm) [edit] |
I havent talked to Ashley all day. I'm kinda worried. I hope everythings ok but I'm sure theres a good reason she didnt call. I just hope I talk to her tomorrow.
Well I think I'm off to bed.
buh bye,
Corey
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| I'm depressed |
| 05.04.04 (12:37 am) [edit] |
I miss Ashley. It's been too long. I hope I can see her this weekend. I feel like crap. I'm in a big funk today. This day sucked. I'm bitching too much but I dont care because I'm depressed and I'm feeling sorry for myself lol sorry. I just really miss her is all. :cry:
I love you Ashley Bay!!! :D
~Corey
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| 05.02.04 (6:28 pm) [edit] |
I'm bored as hell!!! I'm waiting for my boy Jake to get offa work so he can come get me to go to New Orleans to the Mushroom wOOt!! I love head shops...they kick major ass. So uhh right now I'm sitting here listening to The Used....good band. I like em although all the little preppy kids listen to them too. But I like them so fuck preppy kids lol. Their lead singers name is Bert lol. Thats the funniest name in the world I swear. Sorry I'm easilly amused. So today was kinda layed back....with my mind on my money and my money on my mind :roll: Listened to music and talked to my baby...thats pretty much it. Well I wrote some music today too. I'm in the process of writing this song about friends that say you'll be tight for life but then they find a girl and you're nothing but uhh.....chopped liver....there we go. I've been inspired by punk all day lol so I decided to write a punkish kinda song.
Well thats my daily boring entry. Nothing more is required of me lol. Ok well I must be off. Gotta go get dressed and all that fun stuff for tonight.
adious amigos,
Corey
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| OMG!!! I just had an awesome dream. |
| 05.02.04 (4:27 am) [edit] |
Ok it's like 6:13 in the morning or something but I just woke up from this kick ass dream. I cant go into complete detail because it's sexual but I'll go into some I guess. So I'm spending the night with Ash right....at my house at that lol. So were kissing and hands were in "special places" then uhh clothing was removed. So I started kissing her in places...besides her lips and then it started getting really heavy. Like I said I wont go into complete detail cuz I dont know if Ash would like that too much lol. I hope she dosent mind me putting this. I'm sorry if it's a nono baby. I'll delete it if it is k? I just had to like talk about this,or atleast write about it ya know? God that dream was intense. I cant wait to see her now...hehehe.
Well I'm going back to bed. Good......morning everyone *yawn* Good morning my sexy yummy Ashley!! *soft kisses*
~Corey
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| Class for posers is now in session. |
| 05.01.04 (11:08 pm) [edit] |
So I'm back to my old punker ways so now I rant about posers!!! Ok so these dudes that say they're punk and anarchists and all they do is try to act tough and fight all the damn time. Right!!! They think thats what Anarchy is about. Wrong!!! Anarchy is like a state of mind. It's what you wanna do. It's like saying "Ok America, Whats your cup of tea?" It's not dropping outta school. It's...."So Bob,do you wanna drop outta school?" It's a free America. It's one we can be proud of. Where there is no laws against what you wanna do with your life. Now am I pro death....no. I'm pro choice and we are programed to think a certain way but that dog just dosent hunt.
Fuck this moral world and if Americas gonna turn this way Fuck This Flag!! I'm not afraid to say it. But then theres these posers who limit themselves. They're what you call "good americans" Fuck them!!! Dont look like you're rebelling against society....DO IT!!! I mean you dont have to be punk to be anarchy. You just have to want it bad enough. You posers just try too hard man. Do some research and then decide if this life is really for you or not. Sure punk music is great. I love it but I'm a punk because of whats in my heart. It's a fucking fire that burns inside me. Thats what makes me punk. You posers on the other hand you're just a dry shell of a punk. You've got nothing inside. You're trying to be punk but you're still following something. Thats all you know how to do. I say fuck the original punks!!! Fuck whoever opposes my point of view. Thats punk....not giving a fuck. There ya go poser people. You have been schooled. Oh and stop wearing more makeup than a woman unless you are infact a woman!!!
Fuck you and have a nice day!!
Corey :twisted:
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| My God YESS!!!! I found my old Rancid cd!!! |
| 05.01.04 (9:40 pm) [edit] |
so uhh yeah..I found an old Rancid cd and I am listening to it. It's great. Takes me way back. I miss the old punker/skate boarding days. I loved life back then. Maybe I'll relive those times or something lol. I wish I could. It's one thing to wear the old punker clothes and another to be happy with your life. It just so happens thats when I was happiest. I love metal,and I still love the old punk. So I'm still the same old punker at heart right?
I'm still the same guy from years back. I just kinda mellowed out a bit. Maybe I shouldnt. Really the only thing diffrent is I have a diffrent girlfriend and I dress slightly diffrent. I love punk so I think that is to be my futre...once again lol. So uhh I guess I'm an official punker again. Now back to my Rancid cd lol
Later peeps,
Corey
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| my daily fuck you!! |
| 05.01.04 (6:45 pm) [edit] |
to all of those who call themselves my friends. to all of you who claim to have my back and wouldnt lift a finger to help me if needed. to those of you who call yourself my brother and still kick me when I'm down. FUCK YOU!!!! I'm tired of calling people my friends and having them stab me in the back. Fuck you!!! You people arent friends.
All I need is my girl. I wont put my trust in one more friend for them to just to end up fucking me over. Fuck friends. I only have a few anyway. I dont got time for their bullshit!! Fuck this!!
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Draw this darkness out like poison. Stab,retrieve,again decline. Help me drive the dagger deeper trace with me explicit line. Take this blade,a test of faith and strike me deep and true. I put all my trust in you...
This is my monkey! I shall name him Frank and he shall be mine!
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My love were meant to be like a raging fire that's burning free. My vision is blurry so I close my eyes and I see you here with me...
What else can I say? I love her.
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