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| IFA motha fuckas!!!! |
| 04.30.04 (3:59 pm) [edit] |
*OH* ok I dunno why I just did that lol. I still say I dont look like Davey Havok damnit!!! I dont I dont I dont!!! *stomps foot* hmph!!
*is listening to AFI while all this is going on* lol They're a good band OK? I mean........dude....FUCK EVERYBODY MAN!!!!! lol I need to go to sleep or something :lol:
~Corey
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| I've had better days |
| 04.30.04 (3:44 pm) [edit] |
Today is kinda a bad day. I'm sick. I feel like a pile of crap. I'm having mad drug withdrawls today. I hate it when I have those. I went out to eat with my gramdma today which was cool I guess. We went to Mandarin House. I love that place but I was feeling sick there too. I need something to do right now. I cant stand feeling this way. Drugs.....they fuck up your life. Your parents and teachers were right kiddies. Stay away from them at all costs. Dont end up like me having withdrawls and shaking all day. I hope I feel better soon. I bet when Ash calls I'll feel better. I always do. Shes better than any drug. So I'm addicted to her now hehe. I love ya baby!! I'm so lucky to have her in my life. I couldnt ask for more.
Sometimes I'll be at my all time low and she just makes me smile with no problems. Shes so perfect. I gotta stay off drugs so that I can be happy with her forever. I cant let those fuck us up. I wont be like my dad. I wont give up on life and my family. I wont let Ash down. I could never do that to her. Shes too sweet to me to fuck up. Shes the best thing that ever happend to me. I just keep telling myself that. It's all for Ash...and me I guess but moreso for us together. So that we can both be happy together. Heroine though it felt good to do at times has never made me feel the awesome feeling I get when I talk to Ash,or especially when I see her. So I guess I am addicted to her. I'm addicted to the feeling she gives me. I'm addicted to making her happy. I love it all so much. So here I stand still addicted to something...only that something has never let me down. I feel alittle better now. I think I'm gonna go eat something.
later amigos,
Corey :D
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| to my heart,soul,and best friend |
| 04.29.04 (3:18 am) [edit] |
Ashley I love you. I know I say it all the freavking time but I just cant say it enough. You're on my mind the whole day everday and you're on my mind when I lay my head down to sleep. You get me through each day and I hardly ever frown and thats all because of you. You're love has kept me strong when it all seemed so hard for me. I just kept my head up high and because of you I am truly happy. You've taught me what the true meaning of the word love. You've been my hero.
Ash I dont even know what I ever did to deserve a girl like you but I'm grateful to have you with me. I dont know what I'd do without you. I couldnt function each day nor could I smile the way I do all the time. This all feels too good to be true. You're so perfect for me. There isnt one thing about you I dislike. I love who you are. You're beautiful...so beautiful.
You have such a big heart and you always lift my spirits. You have an amazing personality and I love you for that. I love you for always being there. Theres nothing you havent done for me. Well if there is anything you havent done I know you would,because you're just awesome like that. So inside you're the most beautiful girl I've ever met.
You know how I think of you physically. I love the way you look. From your sexified body to your beautiful face. I love it all.
I just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you. Like I'm ever not..lol I love you from the bottom of my heart baby. I've felt this way about you since I've known you. If I ever believed in the term "soul mate" it would be now.
Well I'm off to bed now. Goodnight my princess Ashley bay :D
love always,
Corey
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| my new header |
| 04.26.04 (6:51 pm) [edit] |
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I love it!!! It's awesome. Ashley did it!! I love her so much!!! Thanx baby!!! *muah*
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| top 5 reasons I DONT look like Davey Havok |
| 04.25.04 (10:04 pm) [edit] |
1...I dont wear eye liner.....anymore.
2...I'm skinnier than him
3...I have shorter hair
4...I dont have 12 year old groupies
5...I dont wear pants that may injure my testicles
So Brandon,and Pablo!!! Fuck you niggaz!!!!
I'm still Rick James!!! :lol: I got Pablo saying that now.
Oh well I must depart now.
later peeps,
Corey
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| oh what a Saturday |
| 04.25.04 (12:38 am) [edit] |
Well the Show was killer. Persona 5 was good. Good job yall. Aggro-Fate was pretty cool. Organized Hostility was freaking awesome. It's been a while since I've been to a good show. It was pretty great. Only bad thing is I got kinda hurt in the mosh pit lol. This huge mother fucker was coming right at me. He saw me,and I saw him,and all I could think was "crap" Next thing I know I'm on the ground. He picked me up though,so that was cool. I love moshing. It's fun as hell,but sometimes shit happens I guess. Atleast I'm in one piece for Ashley :D
I miss Ash so damn much. Her being grounded this long sucks monkey balls. But next weekend she'll be off,and I'll see her soon. I cant wait to give her a big ol hug,and a long very passionate kiss. God it'll be awesome. I love you Ashley bay!!!
I guess theres something else to talk about. I talked to Marina today. That went wierd. Her and her boyfriend broke up,and of course I had to be the nice guy and talk to her. I guess it's cool. Shes still a cool chick sometimes. Sometimes when I talk about her though it seems it bothers Ash but I dont love Marina like I used to. I love Ash that way plus more. I really really do. I could hang out with Marina all day,and I wouldnt mess around with her. I love Ash way too much. Marina was my rocky past. Ash is my happy present,and futre. I hope to God she knows that. My love is only for her. You can ask any of my friends. I'm nothing like I used to be. I would never play Ash like that. I swear on Keiths grave I'd never do that. Marina is only a friend now....thats it. But if Ash dosent like it I'll leave Marina alone. I'd do anything for my baby. No matter what it is. I dont want to make her worry like that ya know. So advice anyone. Leave Marina alone,or be her friend? I'm not sure which is best for everyone.
Other than that I guess that about does it. Oh wait Brandon...Pablo.....I DONT LOOK LIKE DAVIE HAVOK!!!!!!!!!!! I'M RICK JAMES BITCH!!!!!!! :lol:
adious,
Corey
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| Ashley |
| 04.24.04 (3:15 pm) [edit] |
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I love you!!!!
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| Persona 5 @ Cypress Hall tonight |
| 04.24.04 (2:36 pm) [edit] |
Tonight @ Cypress Persona 5 (a few of them are good friends of mine) is playing at 7:00 pm,so be there if you live in the NOLA area. No excuses.
Well I'm off now
~Corey
btw...good luck Persona
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| Seek N Strike |
| 04.23.04 (1:11 pm) [edit] |
Here we go...Another day,another srike.
Here we go...It's the living sacrafice
Here we go...against your bullshit ways.
Here we go...against your false pretend
Here we go...Another day,another hour
Here we go...take back the power.
Here we go...I'd rather die on my feet
Here we go...Than keep living on my knees
Here we go...Another day,another strike
Here we go... Jump the fuck up and fight
Here we go...Another place,another tribe
Here we go...No we wont take your bribe
Here we go...Another day,another night
Here we go...With this music unite
Here we go...Another freedom fight
Here we go...God bless me inside.
Seek N Strike
Seek N Strike
Strike!!!
Here we go...Another day,another strike
Here we go...It's the living sacrafice
Here we go...Against your bullshit ways
Here we go...Against your false pretend
Here we go...Another day,another hour
Here we go...Take back the power
Here we go...I'd rather die on my feet
Here we go...Then keep living on my knees.
Here we go...Another day,another strike.
Here we go...It's time to react.
Here we go...Yeah we come full effect
Here we go...Attitude,and respect.
Here we go...Another day,another night
Here we go...Protest,and survive
Here we go...Yeah SoulFly tribe
Here we go...It's time to arise
Seek N Strike
Seek N Strike
Strike
I love that song. I just feel the words,so I thought I would share it with everyone.
Well I'm out
Peace,
Corey
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| my day |
| 04.20.04 (10:31 pm) [edit] |
my day was interesting today. As you all probably know it was the national holiday 4/20 and everyone was smoking rediculious amounts of weed. Well everyone but me. Noone believes that I didnt smoke...lol They have no faith. But nope Corey was a good boy :D Because Corey loves his Ashley :D
I feel so bad. I've been gone for days,and havent really talked to her much. So I think ima try to stay home tomorrow to talk to Ash. I may go to HOS later on,but Ima talk to Ash for a while before I go :D Larry left me this voice mail,and he told me to call him back. Havent gotten to that yet,but I'll do it tomorrow. He sounded alittle pissed,so I wonder whats going on there.
Well i guess thats enough for now.
adious,
Corey
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| my weekly rant |
| 04.19.04 (8:24 pm) [edit] |
I hate our fucking president. George Bush is such a fucking nazi. Every decision he makes is just radical. What he did to Howard Stern was stupid. I mean how is this a free country if we cant say what the fuck we want. I just find that to be hypocritical of Bush. I mean the guy was arrested three times for DWI,and hes probably broken more laws than I have. I hate that bastard.
And he wants to start up the draft again. Excuse the fuck outta me,but shouldnt it be our decision if we wanna go to war or not? Fuck him!! The only reason we even fought in Iraq is because he has a personal grudge with Saddam. Who gives a fuck if he tried to kill your daddy. That dosent mean you can send thousands of troops who are unwilling to kill off his country. We didnt find the weapons of mass destruction he was looking for,so why are we still there. When we went into Dessert Storm,and all those 18 year old kids were drafted. 18 year old George Bush jr was at home safe and sound. Fuck him and his daddy. I wont fight for him. Give me a dishonorary discharge. I dont give a fuck,cuz Bush is a radical alchoholic. And if you support Bush you're a fucking Naze too!!! So you go,and kiss that mans megalominiacal ass.
Thank you,and have a nice day
~Corey
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| Spiritual Awakening |
| 04.18.04 (12:53 pm) [edit] |
Through a dream or a vision I know not which.
I saw myself carrying a box that was very rich
With fear and confusion,anger and pride.
All which to no avail I've tried so hard to hide.
I was walking to a figure all clad in white.
I saw no face on this figure all through my plight.
I saw only hands reaching out to recieve.
With a guizical look. I tried to percieve.
He was reaching to take what I was searching to give.
This heavy burden which I've made myself live.
I gave unto him,and he gave unto me.....
The most peacful feeling....I was finally free.
(a poem by me ^_^)
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| 6 MONTHS TODAY!!!!!!! |
| 04.17.04 (11:04 am) [edit] |
Well it's official. Ash,and I have been together for six months,and I couldnt be happier. Shes the girl of my dreams,and my princess. Sometimes I just sit back and find myself daydreaming about her,and about marriage,and our futre....just everything. I never really felt,nor thought this way before about a girl.....not even Marina. Ashley there's something about you babydoll that just makes me wanna stay with you forever. You are such a special girl and I'm so lucky. Somebody up there did me a huge favour by putting us together. Today is all about you. I decided to not go to the zoo with the HOS crew. I wanted to stay home,and talk to you today.
So I hope the day ends up with smiles. I know it started with them. I love you babydoll!!! *muah*
~Corey
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| The Needle |
| 04.17.04 (1:31 am) [edit] |
You stick the needle in. It penetrates the skin. Do you realize you have junkie fever?
Your veins are falling through. Your mind is failing too,but you need to stick the needle in.
Your thoughts are crazed. Your wisdom hazed,but the junkie fever carries on. You've got the fever. It only carries on.
It happend so fast. The fun of it has passed. You only wish it all could stop. But it goes on,and you go on. It only carries on.
You love to feel it but hate to love it. Your friend and enemy "the needle"
You walk,you stumble. Try to talk,you mumble. You're in too deep. Now you crave "the needle" How you hate to love "the needle"
You say you're alright, but I see your fright. You know you have junkie fever.
You've got the shakes. You wont stop for anyones sake. Face it Corey you're really strung. You need the needle,you need the needle,you only need the needle.
That was a song I wrote about being an addict obviously. I would like to discuss with everyone the battle I fight every day to stay off of heroine,or any drug in general. I wake up shaking sometimes,and I have withdrawls every day. I hate to feel this emptiness inside only because I stopped doing drugs. I guess what I'm trying to say is that no matter what. On drugs or not I still suffer,but I'll never turn back. I'll never shoot up again. So when you think that trying acid,shrooms,heroine,or any drug for that matter think to yourself "do I really wanna suffer with this for the rest of my life?" Please heed my warnings.
Love,
Corey
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| Monday *shoots self* |
| 04.12.04 (3:38 pm) [edit] |
So uhh yeah sup everyone? My day today was good.....to poo on. It seems as if my days get longer,and longer as I wake up later,and later with nothing to do. I hate it. If things are gonna suck so much I wish everything would just pass me by. So bored....so hungry,and thirsty,and bored........
Ok thats enough of that. Well I heard from Dax today. (singer of local bands Acid Bath,and Deadboy and the Elaphant men) Havent heard from that dude in a while. I told him how lifes been treating me. I had not much to positively rant about,so he was like "sucks to be you" THANKS ALOT ASSHOLE!!!!! :lol: Nah it was cool to hear from him. Hes like a father figure to me. When I needed anything when I was younger he was there. I was raised around his music,and he taught me how to sing,so hes really cool. We talked allitle about Audie. It was sad. We almost cried. Audie died years back. He was also in Acid Bath. So right now I'm sorta thinking about death,and how it can come to claim us at any given moment.
I really hate thinking this way. I dont know why I think this way sometimes,but is it all worth it in the end? All this emptiness,and boredom. The only light I have is Ashley,and my everlasting love for her. If Ash werent with me I would end it all,but I do have her,and I thank God for that. I just wish I could see her. I need her so much right now. She always makes me smile no matter what kinda mood I'm in. When I'm with her nothing else matters. Not life,my problems,my family,or fear. I love her more than anything. If ever we break up it'll kill me inside. I fear that so much. I dont want her to end up like Marina. I want to be with Ash for the rest of my life,and I mean every word of that. Hey we'll be together for six months on the 17'th YAY!!!! That makes me happy.
Ok I'm in a better mood now. Well I'm off to see the wizzard now :lol: Later mofos
~Corey
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| fuck life up the tail pipe!!!! |
| 04.05.04 (10:28 pm) [edit] |
The crawfish boil was cool. I enjoyed being with my real family. Thats right HOS is my real family. You dont need to be blood related. These people have proven to love me like I was their own. Each and every one of them have my back,and likewise. Some of them also are my best friends. I appreciate having them in my life to keep me happy,and alive. If it werent for HOS I wouldnt be with Ashley right now. Therefore the House of Shock is a major part of my life.
Well that went good,but as usual my dad was late to come get Ashley to bring her home,and she got home like an hour,and a half late. I wouldnt be mad at him if it were the first time,but it wasnt. Well she got home,and her parents were pissed. My dad tried to talk to them,but when we left she still got in trouble. Her mom dosent like me too much anymore I dont think. She dosent want us to be together. She said she "hates our relationship" and if it were up to her we wouldnt see eachother anymore. I hate this. I hate my life so much right now. If it werent for Ash I would kill myself. I hate breathing at this point. I've been through too much in my life. I dont need anymore bullshit. I want Ash's parents to like me,and accept our relationship. Now I dont wanna be around em. What the fuck should I do? Anyone have some miracle advice to give me? I cant break up with her. I wont do that. I love her too much. I just want this all to be ok. Ash shouldnt be in trouble for this I swear I just wanna scream right now,but I cant.
Well I think I'm going to bed so I can get all of this off my mind. I love you Ashley. Remember that as you lay your head down to sleep tonight.
~Corey
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| Screech!!!!! |
| 04.03.04 (5:42 pm) [edit] |
YO YO YO what up?! :lol: I'm bored as hell,so I decided to write alittle. Isnt that great?lol Anyways uhh not much going on here. I got this boil to go to tomorrow. I've been looking forward to that for a while. It's for the Church at HOS. It's gonna be great,and on top of that Ash is coming with me. HOORAH!!!!!! I miss my baby tons. I miss her like I miss the Ninja Turtles.....the old ones. Not those new stupid looking ones :D
I quit drinking!!!! Thats right no more beer for Corey. No more anything. Well until I lose control,and drink anyway :lol: Nah I had way too much to drink last night,and I got so sick. I threw up like over seven times. It was nasty. I thought I was gonna die.
Well I think that about does it for today. I'll "blog" some other time for your viewing enjoyment.
Later mofos
~Corey
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Draw this darkness out like poison. Stab,retrieve,again decline. Help me drive the dagger deeper trace with me explicit line. Take this blade,a test of faith and strike me deep and true. I put all my trust in you...
This is my monkey! I shall name him Frank and he shall be mine!
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My love were meant to be like a raging fire that's burning free. My vision is blurry so I close my eyes and I see you here with me...
What else can I say? I love her.
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